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public: true date: 2016-08-05T00:00:00Z tags: essay title: My Name is Romina aliases:


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<p>

I came out as transgender today.<br>

This was the first time<br>

I said any of what I was<br>

Experiencing out loud:<br>

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<p>

"My name is Romina,<br>

but I only just realized it.<br>

I am a woman. I have always been.<br>

Now that I have words for my feelings,<br>

I don't know where to begin.<br>

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<p>

"I feel destined for war,<br>

doomed to struggle eternally.<br>

I want peace and happiness.<br>

I want things to be okay.<br>

Why must I always fight?

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"Instead, I get terror.<br>

Gnawing fear.<br>

Paralyzing anxiety.<br>

Immeasurable sadness.<br>

Loneliness. Exclusion.<br>

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<p>

"I have been a shadow, a ghost;<br>

I wish I would have known,<br>

I wish I could have known<br>

Sooner. I could have saved myself<br>

From the crushing distance.<br>

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<p>

"Courage is acting in spite of fear,<br>

Not being insensitive to it.<br>

I am a strong woman,<br>

I am loved and supported;<br>

I can do this."<br>

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